Well, this year is the big year. It’s the year I hit the big you-know-what (has a three in it, rhymes with Bertie, come on work with me people)…It’s the year I turn thirty! Yeah, I’m just gonna say it. Because I refuse to join that pessimistic, doom and gloom, it’s-all-downhill-from-here club! What rubbish!
To tell you the truth, I’m feeling better than ever and I still feel like I’m “on the way up” so to speak. I think what’s changed for me in a big way over the last few years is that I’ve stopped trying to be what others want me to be and also learnt to accept myself for who I am – my strengths, my weaknesses, my wonky right ear. Looking back, I realise that I’d been a personality-contortionist, trying to fit myself into wrong and uncomfortable shapes in the hopes of pleasing people. I was also painfully shy, too terrified to say anything in case someone disagreed or worse, laughed at me. But turns out my personality is just as inflexible as my hamstrings of steel (it takes me a whole hour of warm ups to touch my toes, don’t laugh!) but it’s taken me some time to find it and then gain the confidence to just put it out there and say who-gives-a-flying-duck what anyone says.
There. Catharsis over. Now you know I have a wonky ear and am that person in the back row at Pilates who can’t do a proper roll-down.
Now what I actually started off trying to tell you guys, is this is my dream outfit for my upcoming birthday festivity! I would usually go something more light and pretty, or quirky and boyish, but this time I’m fantasising of an outfit that conjures up the word soiree, a bit glam, a bit sexy, and dare I say, a bit more mature. But not mature in a needing-a-hip-replacement way but in a more self-assured, strong alpha female way. You know, the type that’s not afraid to turn a few heads and cause a bit of a stir.
Tell me what you think about this outfit! Or what would you wear to your big birthday bash?